Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Tag -3 (Phew!)

Stillness Speaks and Wanda, heres my tag reply :) :).....

8 things I am looking forward to:
1) Becoming a good doctor.
2) Learning to play a guitar.
3) Making full and just use of my potentials.
4) Taking things easy sometimes.
5) Revising my textbooks properly till June.
6) Jogging regularly this summer.
7) Learning swimming.
8) To graduate this summer :D

8 things I wish I could do:

1) Be at home right now.
2) Cure cancer.
3) Write a book in the next decade. (I have this one in common with Stillness Speaks)
4) Find out how life was formed.
5) Stop terrorism . I would have said "world peace" in a beauty pageant ;)
6) Be the best at whatever I do.
7) Meet my soul mate. ( Again, share another "would like to " with Stillness Speaks.)
8) Step on the moon.

8 shows I have enjoyed watching:
(Changed this one a bit, I hope its ok.

1) House MD (currently watching)
2) F.R.I.E.N.D.S (its THE best thing that happened in the history of television shows.)
3) Office (US)
4) I dream of jeanie
5) Small wonder
6) Bewitched
7) FIR (great Haryanavi accent by Ms. Chautala)
8) Khichdi

8 things I did yesterday:

1) Made notes for future reference.
2) Read Anatomy.
3) Played Chess and clicked some cool snaps while waiting eagerly for the professor to show up. (He showed up to say "See you tomorrow").
4) Went Shopping for provisions.
Took a walk with friends.
5) Prayed and thanked God in the evening.
6) Replied to 2 tags :) and I have started liking it now
7) Ate pancakes, soup and pizza and forgot about the calories
8) Watched an episode of House MD

My 2nd Tag!

Last week ani_aset tagged me . Its rather delayed, but these are 25 random things about me.......

1) I hate carbonated drinks.
2) Recently I developed a sweet tooth.
3) I love the rain.
4) I adore the smell of first rain .
5)I love to look at dew drops in the morning.
6) I prefer clear winters to sweaty summers.
7)I love to cook, though not a pro.
8)I have an annoyingly strong sense of olfaction. I can smell EVERYTHING.(Its bad when in buses n public places.)
9)I dont like to share my books. I dont like the pages stained or folded.
10) Red is my favorite color now. Last year I liked blue and previously, pink.
11)I adore colors and love to see the effect of different color combinations.
12) I love old Hindi movies, hollywood action and comedy movies .
13) Madhubala is my favorite actress.
14) Amitabh Bacchan is my favorite Hindi actor, in the leading role.
15) Mohd. Rafiji and Ashatai Bhosle are my all time favorite singers.
16) I love to observe paintings for hours. (My friends hate it at the museums)
17)I love to travel.
18)Favorite classic : Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy.
19)I love to watch the stars while falling asleep .
20)I love to paint.
21)If given a chance I would like to change all the unfair things in the world.
22)Favorite sweet (Mithai) Kaju Katri.
23)I love to bake cakes.
24)Favorite dish Baingan ka bharta(Egg plant)
25)I prefer vegetables over meat (if the veggies are fresh, tasty and properly cooked.)
Hope I havnt repeated anything from the last tag.
And I would like to tag :


Sunday, April 19, 2009

Fancy a smoke? Meet Tom.................

"A Cigarette ......what can a small cigarette do? Just try it once.How will you know how it feels like until you actually experience smoking once?" asked Jerry.
Tom took a look at the cigarette, it looked so tempting! Jerry had assured him that a puff or two would make him forget all the tensions from school. And girls liked guys who smoked! "But if it's so cool why did Mom warn me against it?" asked Tom .
By now Jerry was getting annoyed. He gave it a last shot, "Don't be such a baby! If it was so bad, all of us wouldn't have done it."
Tom thought , 'Big deal I try once and go home, Mom won't even know. And I am 13 now- a big boy! If I can go to school alone, I can do anything! Plus I dont want these bullies to laugh at me and call me a coward.'
So he held a cigarette in his hands. It had a fancy paper feel and was open from the other side . He could see some leaf like particles inside through the open end....

"Go ahead, try it" said Jerry. That was Tom's first cigarette.But not the last one..........

10 years later, Tom was smoking 2 packs a day! He was a healthy guy, except for the short lasting episodes of dry cough and a slight breathlessness. But who doesn't cough once or twice a day? He had a girlfriend, Lena - a wonderful girl. She loved him and liked him a lot except for his smoking. He didn't really understand why she kept bugging him about quitting. 'Why doesnt she understand that being a bussinessman is a stressful thing, I cant quit now.' - He thought .
Lena was a surgeon at the Princeton -Plainsborough University Hospital. She loved Tom. She had known him for quite some time now, and would have loved to settle down with him. But when he proposed last month, she said no . She wanted him to quit smoking, and was trying her level best . She had even registered him for rehab sessions in the university hospital -but he never went. She tried explaining to him what he was doing to himself and his body by smoking, how smoking would affect his future life.....but Tom never paid heed to her warnings. He always found reasons to puff on the cigarette.
What Tom didn't know was that a cigarette contains a lot of poisonous substances. A cigarette in Tom's hand actually contained all the toxic substances he encountered in his day-to-day life.

About seven years later, after Lena and Tom had settled down - they had a sweet little angel Michelle . The presence of Michelle made Lena forget her worries about Tom. Lena never succeded in making Tom quit. She talked to Micehlle and loved it when she started toddling . But Lena was always worried about Michelle, she didnt want her to be a passive smoker. It was bad enough that last month Tom's chest X-ray film had shown some emphysematous changes - his lungs had started giving up. She knew what it meant. Emphysema was irreversible. Tom's lungs had started lossing their normal structure. The air spaces had puffed up and were no more elastic. His lungs were not taking part in normal breathing - inflated like a baloon!
Just yesterday she had visited an autopsy at the hospitals Pathology department. When she inspected the body's lungs, she was horrified - Tom's lungs probably looked the same!

Meanwhile, Tom hadnt ceased smoking. He had been diagnosed with "Chronic Bronchitis" which belongs to the group of "Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary diseases" ....the end result of which is lung failure. It wont be a long time before Tom would stop breathing on his own and need oxygenation. The amount of oxygen his lung provided his body was too less and decreasing progressively.

It was Michelles Graduation day! Lena was all happy, her baby angel was all grown up now!
She had succeded in keeping Mich away from the addictive smoking. Lena knew that addiciton may be a genetic problem. Tom smoked, so Mich might! But this time she had decided to fight it fiercely,'not my kid'.

Some months later, while walking to his car, Tom felt a very bad pain in his left leg. He had to stop walking and rest his left calf for a while before he could reach for the car door. "Well,I am getting old!" said Tom as he looked back at the distance that he hadwalked ....only 100 meters. After a minute or two he felt better and left for work.

About two weeks later, while walking from the bed to toilet, Tom hit his left toe. The injury was much severe that he had thought - he hadn't hit it that bad. The wound didnt heal and had ulcerated . Lena knew what was about to come up next.They performed a Dopplerography of Tom's leg blood vessels. Lena explained him that a doppler will show them if the blood supply to the legs is proper, and the walls of the arteries and veins are changed. Lena saw the results and tears trickled down her cheeks.

" If only you would have listened to me you stupid man! Your smoking has occluded the blood supply to your foot. The toe is not healing because you have Buerger's Disease. You came walking in here on you feet, but you will have to go home in a wheelchair! "

This week , they amputated Tom's left foot. They had decided to spare his foot and trim down only his left big toe, but soon they observed his 2nd toe had turned black - it was dead tissue. So they had to amputate the whole left foot because of the compromised blood supply. It was an irony that Lena was also on the surgical team for Toms foot amputation.
During the operation, when Lena saw the foot on a tray, she knew that this is just the beginning - sadly the disease will progressively compromise the blood supply and a number of amputations will follow. She had seen the life of patients after amputation and now it was her Tom in the same place.
When Tom regained consciousness after the surgery, he remembered Jerry and his first cigarette. If only this was a dream! He was really angry at himself. But he needed a cigarette to calm down. He needed a cigarette to fight the stressful situation his previous cigarettes had put him in! That moment Tom hated himself. He felt miserable. A small cigarette had succeded in making him a captive in his own life. A cigarette had made him a cripple.... both mentally and physically!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Fairly unfair.

On 26th november, a bunch of teenagers managed to terrorise the heart of Indian citizens by breaking loose and ruthlessly firing at unarmed innocent Mumbaites when they were on thier way home.
Today, the Indian Supreme court starts a fair trial for the one suriving terorrist Kasab .
Fairly unfair...............


Friday, April 10, 2009

Love ....may be?

You wear a big question mark
on your face most days.
Your heart beats faster
than a horse in a race.

Your cheeks are red hot
but your hands go cold.
You hear everything ,
yet listen to nothing being told.

You hear the birds singing
and the weather seems just fine.
The family gatherings are no longer boring,
you cant differentiate between wine and brine.

You sit silent,
when you want to say a lot.
and you do the somersault
better than you were taught.

Your thoughts rush ahead,
but you freeze there and stay.
.....And you keep on denying,
"you are in love" when they say.

Monday, April 6, 2009

My circus memoirs!

It was like an annual family ritual or something.Every year the dreaded circus came to our city and every year my parents got all excited to book the night show tickets for us! Somehow my brother and cousins seemed to enjoy the mere thought of going to the damn circus........every year!!!
It had new names to fool innocent kids like me....... Jumbo circus, King circus, Big jumbo circus......blah blah blah.....Every year the names brought some hope - that this year it will be different, but nothing like that happened!
Somehow my Mom would always manage to book the first row successfully for almost 8-10 years! I guess my prayers for all the first row seats being sold out were in vain. It was always the night show , so no excuses regarding school could be used.
And however hard I tried, the awful day always arrived, school got over fast and the time to go to circus came nearer......enemy at the doorstep, no rather ,I always found myself at the enemies' doorstep! We would arrive at the huge ground that was always empty the rest of the 300 days of the year, and where now stood a big tent in the middle of a mini lake of people, rather like a heavily infected cell in a pool of microbes.There were people to my left ,right, up, down,everywhere ! So many people!!!! I just remembered Mom's instructions to hold her hand tight and not let go. How will a poor little child breath? Yes, I could never breathe till I saw some clear place in front. But wait, that clear place also brought a distinct smell, as it came nearer, NO! I would find myself standing in front of the cages of a lion, a gorilla, an elephant , a hippo. I always wondered what would happen if those animals escaped out of those cages? Would they scare away all the scary people?
After struggling to settle down and barely managing to catch a breath of fresh air, awful, loud music would be played and the circus clowns would enter! I always went pale with horror when they walked on the edge of the circus ring, the dwarf clown hitting the tall one with a bat and trying to talk to the kids in front row! Ducking down , hiding my face with my hands -I had tried them all from time to time- useless acts of desperation.
The worst of all was yet to arrive..... the attraction of the night , cricket match between the two elephant teams. I love elephants but do they really have to play cricket? Cant they just be -peace loving as they are naturally? How I wished to escape ! They always put a net all around the border of the playing field, but it was not tall enough( and good enough) to convince a scared little kid like me. Those jumbo elephants came with a bat which looked much like a piece of chalk to me. And the ball they used to play cricket with was actually a football! I never lost sight of the ball. What if it hits me right in the face?
The lions and the tigers arrived always chained and locked up . They were made to walk in circles on their front paws and made to jump through fire. I never really comprehended the reason for this. Oh how I wished to snatch the whip that the trainer carried around to threaten the lions!
Need I really mention my state when the acrobatics started? All I wished for was to go home and drift away to a much calmer and peaceful place inside me! A place where there was no loud music, no weird clowns, no bat-wielding elephants and certainly no footballs!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

I have been tagged.......

'Recently Vyazz decided to tag me . Here are somethings that people might not know about me.
1) I might be a chatterbox but I don't share all my feelings even with the people closest to me.
2) When I am alone I love to sing.
3) I like to dance ,sometimes, alone. :)
4) I adore animals. The Lion is my favorite among all the other "cats".
5) I love all babies..... Human babies, donkey babies, piglets, kittens. Cubs and puppies are my favorite.
6) I love the smell of rain.
7) I love driving and traveling during monsoon. The waterfalls and scenic beauty of Kasara ghat, Trimbakeshwar, Sanchi, Ajanta caves and the beautiful forest around the township of Silwani.
8) I prefer the silence and tranquility of the forests and fields.I cant breath in crowded areas.
9) I am not very comfortable around strangers. I usually am silent and don't like to start conversations with a stranger.
10) My first impression on people is that I am a proud snob.....I am really nothing of that sort.
11) I love to give my 100% in my workplace and I love to follow the rules there. That's the reason why I am strict in the hospitals.
12) Writing is a more comfortable form of communication than elocution for me. I usually put down my thoughts more effectively than say them out aloud.
13) I am very possessive about my family and several of my friends.
14) I stick to my believes and morals. My believes are based upon a long thought process and analysis. I usually stick to what I believe . I am stubborn when it comes to my morals.
15) Loyalty is one of the essential pillars on which I build my relationships.
16) I don't really show out all my emotions towards a select few people in my life.For reasons unknown I like to hide them. I usually replace them with either fights or jokes.
17) I love chocolates.
18) I hate to watch sad, depressing, gory movies.
19) I am learning to speak out my feelings due to the recent realization that its good and decreases misunderstandings.
20) I hate to share my books and I only lend them after making sure that the person wont spoil them.
21) I hate boot lickers and people with double standards.
22) I usually don't talk to a person if I don't like him/her.
23) I don't really care what people think about me. I do what I feel is right. -One reason why I don't have a huge fan following. I don't regret it.
24) Would I like to change anything in my life if given a chance? Nothing, I love my life. But I would certainly like to change some things in this world.
25)Love.... is a good feeling in moderate amounts. In excess it becomes destructive and dangerous . I have seen people change for their lovers, I think a person should accept you as you are.
26) The most romantic place in the world is..........27) My favorite city: Sankt Petersburg.
28) I am lazy on Sundays and active on weekdays.
29) I love to plan ahead...I have Daily plans, Monthly plans, Yearly plans.Though I might not be able to fulfill all , I still love to put it down.
30) I am short tempered. But cool down even faster.
31) I have only 4-5 close friends. I like to care for them and I like to connect with them everyday. I believe in quality not quantity.
32) I hate it when flowers wilt away.
33) My Dad is my idol.
34) AS is my Inspiration .
35) My Mom is my strength.
36) My bro is my faith.
37) Jui is my favorite heroine (my Pomeranian) Aww, the way she acts.
38) SJ makes me happy.
39) I am what I am, without adulteration.
40) I love making jokes but not everybody gets them! :)
So there you have it, 40 things about me! I will not be tagging anyone else, but if you guys reading this would like to put down things about yourself, consider this a tag! :)